your rusted lies and the noxious fumes

like a cyanide heart, your words drip acid
and your tongue flicks toxic lips.
iloveyou's and imsorry's spit like rusty nails
and close the lid to my coffin.
i once believed in your fatal lies;
i deluded myself that they kept me alive,
but now your lethal slander simply makes me want to die.
i vaguely remember when i would look into your coffee stained eyes,
and i actually believed that i could see my face
being reflected in those shining balls;
i could feel my heart knock against my chest bone
because it was me that was making you smile.,
but really it was because i needed something; anything
i just needed to be needed.
now all that i am left with is a shattered mind,
and weary eyes that refuse to stop leaking,
and the revolving thought that i am an idiot to have
ever believed that you were a good idea,
which i realize as i stare up at you from the floor
at your clenched fists used to fix me, to
correct the errors i have made; prevent new ones
as i appologize and beg
myself hoarse.
and your imsorrys don't make the cut anymore, but
because i was so generous and forgiving
for so many years, i'll have to pay for it in those
that are yet to come.
your words have eroded away
and all that is left imprinted in my hollow chest
are your rusted lies and the noxious fumes
of your
imsorry's and iloveyou's,
overshadowed by the truth
in your
i'llkillyou's and ihateyou's